Tears are the safety valve of the heart when too much pressure is laid on it (Albert Smith)
I learned that courage was not the absence of fear, but the triumph over it. The brave man is not he who does not feel afraid, but he who conquers that fear (Nelson Mandela)
All changes even the most longed for have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves: we must die to one life before we can enter another! (Anatole France)
I put red lipstick on as a final touch. Having
washed and blow-dried my hair, I had put on my velvet dress and a waistcoat. And high-heeled
boots. I was ready to face the ordeal…
***
Lily had not even attempted
to sneak into my bed last night. I heard her and Izzi snuffling and frolicking at
some stage during the night, but chose to ignore their antics. When I awoke and
Lily was still in her basket, I said Good Morning! to her. She looked at me
then nuzzled down into her basket again. Sulking still, I thought… She had been
for her vaccination yesterday and been told that she was a bit chubby! She was
so depressed about that. She moped about all afternoon and evening at the
thought of her food ration being cut down. And no snacks...
When I went over to give her
a cuddle. I recoiled in absolute horror! And had to go to the bathroom to be
sick. Lily had spent part of the night embracing a mutilated rabbit carcass.
I closed the bedroom door behind me.
Texted Tom (who is in SUNNY South Africa). Tom phoned me, his chuckles quickly
turning to concern when he realised I was crying. He suggested I get the neighbour
in to remove the carcass. Oh yes, that would work – knock on the door in my
skimpy nightie and say: “Brian (next door left) / Allan (next door right),
would you mind coming up to my bedroom? Tom is away and I have a slight problem
that needs dealing with…”
This had to be dealt with on
my own. I closed Lily in the sanctuary. She wasn’t too perturbed, she likes it
in there. I puckered my red lips, took a deep breath and went in…
***
Needless to say after the
deed had been done and Bunny returned to nature, I had to return post haste to
the bathroom to be sick again. I sat down and cried for the poor little creature…and
a little for myself…